Each year I do an end-of-year roundup here. The trouble is, this
year is only really a half-year because the eczema that has afflicted my face
curtailed all female presentation after July. It has been very hard, weird and
quite distressing, after 4 years of presenting mainly as female, to go back to
essentially full-time male. I think I should be OK to put on makeup again soon
but I would prefer to be fully clear of it rather than trying to risk a start
that’s too early. A friend of mine yesterday likened it to a sports injury: you
feel you’re probably OK enough to go back to playing but end up making things
worse if you aren’t yet 100% healed. So I’ve decided to adopt Stella’s portrait
photo of me as my avatar for 2015 – you can actually see the scarring here, but
I hope I still look pretty.
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| Nottingham: Revolution |
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| London: Kinkao in Brick Lane |
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| London: Salieri in the Strand |
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| Brighton: La Capannina |
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| Manchester: Canal St |
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| London: Islington |
also had time away in Brighton, Manchester (twice) and
Nottingham, always with lots of girls around.
But those trips I made to see Tgirlfriends after my enforced
change showed me that I have made some genuine friends as they all insisted –
despite my protests – on presenting as male in sympathy with me. Thank you.
I am bothered by the disappearance of some friends. Often
TGirls you have got to know just vanish – they get fed up with the scene, or
they hope to cure themselves of their transness by finding masculine
distractions, or they remarry and the new wife doesn’t know (a mistake in my
view). I’m wondering about the time that I can’t help feeling was wasted in
trying to get to know these disappearing acts. Of course, people have their
motives and it wouldn’t be right to discourage them from doing what’s best for
them, but a quick word of goodbye and even explanation never goes amiss.
I’m not sure what 2015 will bring but as far as this blog
goes I will definitely be doing proper reviews of places in London that TGirls
can eat and drink at and feel comfortable. I have promised this for years but I
am now ready to do this!
Sue x
Happy new year to you and I hope that 2015 (or even twenty past eight :-) ) is kind to you. It is a shame when people we know vanish (hence the Our Different Journey project), and hopefully they are well, just doing something else for a stint.
ReplyDeleteYou say it's only half a year, but you seem to have kept busy!
Thanks, honey. As the person who has commented most on my blog posts in 2014 I think you deserve some kind of award - a tiara or sash or something, which you can wear with pride (or something). Sue x
DeleteHappy New Year Sue. Take your time coming back and aim for full recovery, then hopefully you reap your just rewards. I cannot help but wholly agree with your thoughts about "disappearance of some friends" - this continues to baffle me too, especially the time and effort that goes into it from our point of view! One of life's mysteries I'm afraid but somehow I will never get my head around it unfortunately. Take care. KD. xxx
ReplyDeleteThanks, KD. Wishing you a happy 2015. Sue x
DeleteI hope you are keeping the better half of your wardrobe dust free. You are going to need it all again, I just hope it's a lot sooner than later.
ReplyDeleteI cannot comprehend how tough it must have been since July. You were one dancing in the limelight way before me and to stop must have been so hard.
I hope that your time will come again - and soon
Thank you, Becca. I am hopeful that it won't be long before I can return to a life that's more fully feminine. Sue x
DeletePiercing ears is a very good start ! Good to get rid of clipons as well. They hurt !
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