I went to Sparkle, the fabulous national transgender celebration in Manchester, as planned.
Sadly, I had to abandon my plans on Saturday afternoon as this eczema on my face got so bad.
I am going to have to take the final step in dealing with it, the one I had been hoping it wasn't necessary to take, which is to stop shaving and apply nothing to my face - soaps, makeup, razors, moisturisers, sunscreens, etc. - and also stop absorbing anything that heats the skin - direct sunlight, alcohol, spicy food...
I've been in this situation before, so this decision is after consultation with doctors and specialists and based on past experience.
This means that my appearances in public are ended, very likely for the rest of this year and probably more.
I have dressed as a woman every single day since I stopped purging nearly 20 years ago and I have been out and about happily in public for nearly five years so this is the worst situation that could have happened. I will still be online, of course, and I have a few things to write up, such as my holiday and what news of Sparkle I can provide.
But I am pretty devastated.
Sue x
Sorry to hear that. I hope your skin clears up soon, and I really hope the days go quickly. xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lynn. I'm really hoping that it will be only a few months of exile. Sue x
DeleteHello Sue. Really sorry to read your latest entry especially after only seeing and talking to you only 24hrs previously in Manchester. Clearly you have been thinking a lot since then to make this regrettable but understandable decision. May be rather than think if at all possible to take things one step at a time and not look too far ahead into the future, then something may change just to give you that bit of extra hope. Remember, there is always light at the end of tunnel, although you dont how long the tunnel is but regardless there IS light there! Just may be things will change again quicker than you expect (well fingers cross). Regardless, I (& others) will be there for you, continue to give you support and encouragement and as already discussed, just pick up the phone if you wish to chat, may not have the answers but we will listen and offer some words of hope. However, what I say above is just words but thinking about you never the less. Please take care and BIG hugs. K.D. xxxx
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Thanks for your very kind words, KD. As you say, fingers crossed. It will clear up - it always does - but in the meantime we'll still be in touch. Sue x
DeleteYou are still you, still Sue and whilst I cannot imagine how hard this will be I hope you can focus on the knowledge that this cure dose work.
ReplyDeleteThanks Becca. It doesn't make any difference to the fact that I am still trans. It's just a very frustrating setback on my journey. But it's temporary, and that thought keeps me going. Sue x
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